Christmas is a funny time of year. It's a time when everything seems amplified somehow. If you are at one with yourself and surrounded by those that you truly love, it's a magical time. A day of happy togetherness. If, for whatever reason, all is not well with your world, it's a real toughie.
We had a quiet one, my children and I. It was a fitting way to see off a rather tumultuous year I think.
On Boxing Day morning I awoke and felt what I can only describe as a surge of relief. A 'thank chuff that's over' kind of relief. High on this welcome lightness of spirit, I de-Christmassed and cleaned like a woman possessed! Oh but it felt good.
I'm not going to do my usual look back over the year, this year. There has been far too much sadness which I don't want to dwell on. Instead, I am choosing to look forward and focus only on the good things that I shall be taking into 2017 ...
♥ My little pink yarn shop, of course, is a very good thing. Going from being a stay-at-home mum and wife to starting a new business was far harder than it ever should have been I suppose because it coincided with devastation in my personal life. In all honesty, had I known I was going to have to do it entirely alone, I'm not sure that I would even have entertained the idea. However, I didn't know, I did do it and here I am, a bona fide yarn shop owner!
♥ Friendship has meant far more to me during 2016 than it ever has. I'm not normally a great one for turning to other people for emotional help but this year I have felt the need to and those friends have showed me nothing but love and support. I've also made a lot of new friends this year, some of whom are already quite dear to me.
Talking of friendships, I just had to show you the beautiful patchwork hot water bottle that Jooles made for me. I cried when I opened it. I also received a pair of gorgeous crocheted wristwarmers from Sandra. I adore both girls and their gifts mean so much.
♥ Now this last bit is going to sound very self-congratulatory and I do hope you'll agree that I don't make a habit of blowing my own trumpet but, for once, I feel it is justified. It has been a difficult year but I'm proud of myself for keeping going when I really doubted whether I could any more. I'm proud of myself for maintaining my dignity at the times when I could quite easily have not. I'm proud of achieving what I have despite the odds being stacked firmly against me. Most of all, I'm proud of the fact that my children are both proud of me. So you could say I'm pretty proud of myself!
I guess it's true, you really don't know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.
That said, I shall personally be giving 2016 my middle finger as it departs and turning to welcome 2017 with open arms and hope in my heart. Better things are coming my friends, I just know they are.
So, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for your encouragement and kindness over the last twelve months. I wish you all a very happy, creative and sparkly New Year.